Silence

You come around
With all your sweet lies
And I accept them
In between sighs
Knowing that I
Soon
Will have to fortify
Against them and you
Since I am aware
You are untrue
In some fashion
For how am I to believe?
When you do not receive
Myself
When I am presented to you?
You instead provide passable regard
One would provide an estranged friend
Little affection or love’s reward
Why should we not end?

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… I could stand some more friendly faces. Tired of this drought. Sick of being put through the paces. Of asking for love and it all coming to nought… of no give and only take, feeling no love and only hate. Jealousy is no indication of affection, only disrespect. So I say this with no ill intention, you hold in me no sort of regard.

How Many Times?

How many times
Will my soul need healing?
How many times
Do I get to kneeling?
Hear you’ve long ago lost all feeling?
And there’s no chance left
For me
Because of someone
Who left you
Long ago destitute…
Sad and blue…

Well that’s just not fair.
Your disregard shows.
So I sink into despair
We use a fool’s tools
Who follows fool’s rules
And level the playing field
As we yield to the other’s idiocy

But I still recall,
The days we met
How can I forget?
Braces, acne… fresh, sunny smiles
You and all your cunning wiles…
Then I did love you.
Although I did not know it yet…
Then I did fall.

Someone Who is Real

Sometime ago
You told me you would come to find me
You didn’t
But I never forgot thee
You always lived in my memory.

We both met other people
Fell in love
Got married
But those loves,
They fell apart
You were always deep
In my simple heart.

I had an opportunity
To come home for once
I saw you
& fell once more
Yet I was afraid
Because of all that was being said.

You said once, “don’t marry that man.”
I said,  “he gives me something you never can.”
I never once forgot you, however.
And for the future could not, no matter how I endeavored.

Despite the past
And pondering whether we would even last
I sought you.
And darned if it wasn’t a two-way street
We touched each other’s souls
Whenever we would meet
Never any deceit.

Now I see
How much I truly meant
And how far back affection really goes
I didn’t realize…
That our hearts had crashed long ago…
There’s significance in you.
You are the one I need

Oh M, you are to me,
What he should have been
But things happen the way they do.
And sometimes you have a soulmate or two…
Before you find someone who is Real.
I love you.

Echoes, My Friend, Outside the Wind Blows, Never Love Again…

Echoes

Your laughter echoes, in the back of my mind, like a dream
Like a cascading waterfall, tumbling down, tickling my memory
an ECHO
It’s just a memory
It stagnates inside,
Stifles me.

My Friend

I had a friend…
I seem to have misplaced
A friend, a love, to me
Can you help me find him?
He disappeared, you see
I might have said something
That caused him to flee
Yet how can I ever know
How can I possibly see
If he will not talk to me?

Outside the Wind Blows

Outside the wind blows
Inside I’m missing you
and nobody knows
I can hear the beating of my heart
whispering silently inside
wishing we weren’t apart
so I deny
and tell myself it must be something else
But why, why?
something else must be making my heart feel this pain
After all, how can I feel it
When it is in vain?
the chimes play a melody so clear
why can’t i
Feel as well as hear
my true feelings
without the things that interfere?
Oh why…
There is no end
Only a beginning
Words are constrained for fear to offend
Just block the feelings that threaten to consume me
Dreamt of you all last night
Why doesn’t the import of your existence to me cause you to see?
Look inside
I’ve begged you
What is the most painful is what I hide.

Never Love Again

If I could wrap my arms around you
I’d thank the moon, the sun, the stars
I’d never forsake you
Never would I go far

Oh!
This endless ache
This never-ending love
Will it never end?
If I could lay
In your arms
Again
Find peace within me

You
I loved
More than God
The moon
The stars
The earth
The heavens
Grass on the ground, birds in the trees…

I desire
No more empty faces
No more endless nights
No more haunting dreams
Of what shall never be

My heart!
I will not die
Of a broken heart
I will live on
Yet without you
I will live thus:

Without love.

For I cannot love
That way
Ever Again

And to love
Any other way
It is a fallacy…a fraud

So I shall be true
To my heart
And never love again.

* Excerpts from http://www.amazon.com/Lost-Found-Violet-Yates-ebook/dp/B0051EZDZ2/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1423955817&sr=8-1&keywords=lost+%26+found+violet+yates

Word Prisms

Sometimes I can’t shut down my brain

And the rhymes, they come in waves

Begging to be let out

Often it is more of a scream

Or a clear shout

Lately it’s been driving me insane

You’re my treasure, my pleasure…

In full measure

O baby, even now

You interrupt my ink

I only want to stop the rain

Just for a time, so I can think!

My mind is on its own blink…

Dancing amongst word prisms

Skipping to the crimson throb of my own rhythm…

I’m bleeding from within…

Senses

Everybody is busy trying
To shut out the night
Flooding their senses
Images, visages, fighting off demons…
Even of their own making…
Perhaps.
Or flying in from the universe
Preying on the innocent…
They know not…
Or do… they?
Flitting about,
Like gold-winged bats.
Noted spiraling down.
Blue sky,  cotton-ball clouds,
Flute, violin,  bass, play them for me now.
Lost in your constant high,
Strum me like a lute.
I respond only to you.
Heavenly tune,
You’re overdue.